Hey Jealousy
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radiumgirlI renewed my drivers license yesterday and ran into My-Mother-the-Convict at the G-burg DMV. There was a two-hour wait and I was having a nice conversation with another lady about how the job market sucks like whoa when Melinda wandered out of the ether all big smiles and "Hi, sweeties!"
She was getting her license renewed too. She showed me her photocard and it was actually, legitimately, a photocard.
When I was in high school, Melinda once got arrested when she went to renew her license because when they type your name into the computer, a notice pops up if there are warrants out for your arrest. I waited expectantly when her number was called, but all they did was take her picture.
I'm a little bit sorry to say that I was sorely disappointed. Not that I wanted her to get arrested, per se. It would have been awkward and she probably would have cried and I would have probably gotten dragged into calling the Surprise!Step-dad to come post bail or something.
I just sincerely felt like I was slapped in the face when she left the photo area all smiles, holding her license up at me like she was eighteen years old and it was her fucking high school diploma.
I tried to help her get her shit together for years.
I once begged her, right before the shit hit the fan and I left; I said that she was going down and taking my brother and I with her. She said that she was okay with that. I pressed the issue and got a chair and a vegetable knife thrown at me for the trouble. I spent the rest of the night and most of the next day in my room with a dresser shoved in front of the door.
So, excuse me for being a little bitter over the fact that she, somewhere, somehow, figured out how to be a (semi) functional human being.
Without me.
She was getting her license renewed too. She showed me her photocard and it was actually, legitimately, a photocard.
When I was in high school, Melinda once got arrested when she went to renew her license because when they type your name into the computer, a notice pops up if there are warrants out for your arrest. I waited expectantly when her number was called, but all they did was take her picture.
I'm a little bit sorry to say that I was sorely disappointed. Not that I wanted her to get arrested, per se. It would have been awkward and she probably would have cried and I would have probably gotten dragged into calling the Surprise!Step-dad to come post bail or something.
I just sincerely felt like I was slapped in the face when she left the photo area all smiles, holding her license up at me like she was eighteen years old and it was her fucking high school diploma.
I tried to help her get her shit together for years.
I once begged her, right before the shit hit the fan and I left; I said that she was going down and taking my brother and I with her. She said that she was okay with that. I pressed the issue and got a chair and a vegetable knife thrown at me for the trouble. I spent the rest of the night and most of the next day in my room with a dresser shoved in front of the door.
So, excuse me for being a little bitter over the fact that she, somewhere, somehow, figured out how to be a (semi) functional human being.
Without me.
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Date: March 1st, 2011 01:31 am (UTC)You are a much better person than your mother. Never weigh yourself against her. It's even possible she went in there KNOWING you'd be there just to try to get at you. OR, maybe she wanted you to be proud. Sadly, you'll probably never know.
You should be proud of yourself though. You did and do what you have to do and you're future is much brighter than hers could ever be and you have YOURSELF to thank for that. *hugs*
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Date: March 1st, 2011 11:52 am (UTC)I actually briefly had that thought. She wanted to do awkward birthday lunch that Saturday and I said I couldn't because I had to get my license renewed. So...she totally knew I was going to be there. Probably.
She makes me grumpy.
*hugs*